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Biography

I am 48 years old, single and never been married. I graduated from Oxnard High School in 1978. Following that I moved to northern California near Sacramento, to live with my father, where he had relocated after my parents were divorced in 1976. While living there I attended the local Junior College for one semester with no real direction or goal in mind.

In 1980 my father decided he wanted to move to Maui, Hawaii. What a wonderful place to live when you are a 20 year old girl! At first I lived with my father, then on my own for the next 22 years. I worked a lot of jobs to support myself for the first few years: taught swimming lessons, worked in retail, waited tables and cleaned houses. I also took classes at Maui Community College, again with no real idea of what I wanted to be when I grew up.

My house cleaning jobs turned into a business, and I eventually gave up on the idea of getting an education. My thinking, at the time, was I was making a decent living running a vacation rental cleaning business so why bother with school? My business grew and grew, and I was on top of the world, until about the mid 1990's when things started to take a turn for the worse.

My business grew fast, too fast. I was under tremendous stress and I did not have the proper skills to run a business of that size successfully. And, the deaths of both of my grand parents within three weeks of each other really shook me up. I went into a deep depression that spiraled into an even worse drug/alcohol problem. After hitting a deep, ugly bottom, I ended up pennyless and on the street.

Fortunately, loving family members were kind enough to help me get into treatment back in California For almost five years now, I have been clean and sober. I am living in Ventura now with a wonderful man whom I have been with now for almost 4 years. I am a Senior at California State University at Northridge and I hope to complete a Bachelors Degree in Recreation Management in the Spring of 2009.

 


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The lyrics to the Song "Wake Me Up"

by Evanescence

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become

now that I know what I'm without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become

(Bring me to life)
I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

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